What has challenged me most about living with MBC is how it instantly disabled me. I have only known of my metastatic recurrence for one month. I unfortunately have widespread cancer in my skull, ribs, pelvis, sternum, arms, femurs, and spine. Due to a large lesion on my lower left femur, I am at risk of a fracture. I have had to limit weight bearing on my leg and use a cane to walk. This has been so hard. I’m a 48 year old busy Mom and wife with two teenage daughters. Two adult sons live with us, and one adult son lives out of state. I hate burdening them, even as I’m grateful for their help. Not being able to move like I used to is so upsetting. Two months ago I was standing on my feet for hours volunteering in the concession stand for a high school football game. Now, I’m lamenting the missed autumn walks through the woods, the loss of cooking for my family every day, and all that I wont be able to do for the upcoming holidays. I know I can do much of the activities in a modified way, and I’m learning how. I hold out hope that radiation treatment will reduce my fracture risk, and I can walk normally again. In the meantime, I will still try to find the joy of living in every day. I will soak in every day I get, and all the time I get to spend with my loved ones.




