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Bridgette G.
United states

I was diagnosed in 2015 with MBC, de nova, as I have statistically beat the odds of survival it is not without years of treatments, pain, financial devastation to name a few. It is bittersweet to live plus 10 years after a devastating diagnosis and I think what people don’t know or realize is just because you don’t look sick doesn’t mean you’re not sick, both physically and psychologically. The treatments never end until you die. The day to day, minute to minute intrusive thoughts, that can’t be controlled at times, is exhausting. The limitations, while trying to push through is exhausting, the “I’m ok” when you feel broken is exhausting, knowing in your mind you can do something but your body won’t allow it is exhausting, grieving your own death while you are still alive is exhausting. So while experiencing the joy and blessings of being alive is great; the secret world your mind lives in that you never burden others with is exhausting.